This is a loaded question even on the best of days because I feel as though my goals and aspirations change with my mood! As I have previously mentioned, I thought coming to India and removing myself from my friends and family would help me decide what my goals and aspirations really are but so far, that hasn’t happened. So, in response to this prompt, I will write what I am feeling today and hope that it can somehow lead me to something more permanent.
Let’s start with my aspirations. This word has always been somewhat intimidating to me. Aspiration – meaning you have to have goals to aspire to. I aspire to take everything I have learned here in India and live it! Along with this, my bigger implication aspirations are similar to everyone’s human condition; to be happy, healthy, live long, and prosper. I aspire to be the best person that I can be (something I haven’t been doing a very good job of) and to learn from every mistake that I make. I aspire to enjoy, and not regret, every day of my nursing program over the next coming year and don’t look back on the ‘should have, could have, would haves’ of my life!
My goals for the upcoming year are simple. Be a happier, more joyful person. Get stellar grades and learn how to be the best nurse that I can be and don’t regret it! Mother Teresa wrote in a letter to her spiritual guide: “Walk ahead, because if you look back you will go back.” These words of wisdom could not be more pertinent to me. I find myself always wondering if the grass is greener on the other side, when really I know it is not!
Another goal (and I supposed you could also call it an aspiration) that I have is to be a better wife to my wonderful husband. Coming to India and leaving him alone for three months may be perceived as selfish but it was the wakeup call I needed to remind me that my life at home is exactly what I want! Now, for those of you that are reading this, that doesn’t mean that I didn’t know this before leaving but as cliché as it sounds distance really does make the heart grow fonder!
For those of you who may be worried about being homesick while you are away from your family and friends I will tell you that you probably will be, there is no way to avoid it. But, I can tell you this: that homesickness is a way to learn about yourself and remember what relationships are important. It will also help you to value friendship and the relationship you have with your family even more when you aren’t able to see them every day.
This anecdotal tangent serves a purpose. It is to remind myself that every relationship is important and valuable and I am going to aspire to make them all meaningful when I return home. Without these relationships to learn and grow from, life is utterly meaningless.